Today has been a long time coming

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Today is the first day since moving into our new home in January that I’ve actually been alone in the house. Why? Because today is the first day in two very long, very challenging years that Brendan Bjorn has been able to attend school.

Today has been a long time coming.

I sit here in the unfamiliar silence – not even the sound of a feeding pump churning away – and wonder, should I get up and do the washing up which has been left for me to do? No, I don’t think I will. Not just yet. I’m going to sit here and do absolutely nothing for a few minutes. When I say absolutely nothing, what I mean is that I don’t have to be on high alert right now waiting for an alarm to sound or my son to cough and run down the hallway at a moment’s notice. No, I actually don’t have to do anything at all right now, not even be on high alert.

Today has been a long time coming. 

When I brought Brendan Bjorn into his new classroom this morning, he was very quiet. No smiles. Not his usual happy self. I was worried. I had a nice talk with his teacher, the classroom assistants, and the two school nurses – my mind racing as I tried to remember nearly 15 years of what to say in the space of 15 minutes. I think I covered the bulk of it, but undoubtedly there’s always more to say.

As I was finishing talking with one of the nurses and we made our way to the exit of the school, we stood in front of the windowed wall where the Friday morning assembly was taking place. Across the room I could see Brendan Bjorn. He was watching all of the students gathered together…and he was cracking up laughing!!! The smile from ear to ear, his arms stiff with cerebral palsy being forced upward to his chest as his joyful body took control. An indescribable feeling came over me at witnessing such a beautiful sight.

I wanted to cry.

That’s my boy. That’s MY baby in there, laughing, back amongst his peers, and he is happy. My heart skipped a beat and I fought back the tears as I finished the conversation with the nurse while we both watched Brendan Bjorn.

As I drove away from the school, I let the tears flow.

Today has been a long time coming.

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